jEet SaNdhU

       Sometimes darkness seem ceaseless. I am going through a similar time. Everything is really sad right now. It has always been the same . But a display of 'happy' facade covered the hollowness beneath.  Its been really long I've felt a true and sheer joy within me , and am dying to have one. Only if my life was that simple. I know , am aware, all got their own share of pain, but for me, mine is the horrible one. Imagine something  which is bitter to swallow and forbidden to spit. That's how I feel every moment. Sometimes you need to get accustomed to the darkness. There's no light waiting for you . That's the only way.........   P.S :  I may regret writing such negativity tomorrow . Anyway as for now, its soothing to pour the heart out.

   Yeahhhhhhh!!!!  i just got a call from my friend. A holi party has been organized at her society with DJ'S, BHANG, THANDAAI!! So excited! Mine society is strictly boring and dull. Apart from republic day no other festival is celebrated. That too alternate years. No surprise ,we hardly bond with people here. I vividly remember one such holi when we as kids were thrown out of the society premises  just for breaking it's pathetic rules. Our mistake- we splattered water in front of somebody's door ,and that 'khadoos' got us out of the society. Heights! I have always hated living here,only for its unneeded strictness. "Bura na mano holi hai " never worked with people here. They need a chance to feel 'Bura' on everything.                              It's been years now i have played holi.   Though day after tomorrow...

          Tangled, dry, crinkly, irritating - am suffering from "bad hair" this week...  all credits to my busy schedule that had me running and   I   couldn't spare a minute to pamper my hair.    I   have just washed my hair and  its pitiful seeing them in this horrible state.           My clothes have gone loose on me.   I   have lost few kilos climbing up and down the stairs at the college. Being one of the reputed   colleges   in the area and having 6 elevators, refusing to use even one is ridiculous and unexpected.  " I am 60 and climb steps easily. You are still young" is a lame reason my principle has when requested for using   the elevator. Hopeless situation!   The suggestion box hung   outside on   his office wall now reads to me ' just another showpiece'.             Okay sir, i...

                                                                              G'morning! so happy that am atlast done with my software. teachers had us going crazy . and even thin. my weight has surely fallen down by 2 - 3 kilos,running up and down  at college,begging teachers to correct the assignments.                                                                  ...

     i have got up early today and its feeling great, fresh and active. my exams are near and am trying my level best not to waste time though i end up wasting time thinking and over thinking over things that doesn't exist in the first place . my college project ,ie ,a software is still pending and the submission day is drawing near. its the last year of my computer science course and the last semester. glad that finally i will cut off from technical field which is so not made for me. i was always interested in literature but computer science happened accidently.  anyway no regrets because i have learnt techie stuff and i can take pride (atleast before non-techie people ) .      so lately i have been searching for a good plot for my future novel. i couldn't imagine a complete plot but i have definitely got the characters. every now a days novel is a romance fiction ,even mine would be i guess! as of now i got no idea how my story is going...